As the sun sets...

I looked out at the bay,
Night after night.
Day after day,
and each twilight…

Sunset, glorious sun,
Slowly dipping down his head,
Taking with him all what I’d done,
And all what I had said.

Each evening I wished,
I had done things better.
Remembering things I had missed,
Wishing I could at least write a letter.

Nothing I could do,
But wait and wait.
How can I tell you?
How cruel can be fate?

All the time I spurned your love,
And acted like I cared.
All those times you know how,
I pretended your life I shared.

Little things I missed,
Nuances I couldn’t understand.
All the while I wished,
I was holding someone else’s hand.

I spent hours,
Thinking of what could have been.
Never seeing the love you showered,
Not seeing what everyone else was seeing.

The years I wasted,
Comes rushing back at me.
All the tears I had tasted,
Wouldn’t just let me be.

I have done many a good,
I have done worse things too.
Of it all only one thing matters as it should,
That I hurt of all people – you.

Here as I stood,
Beside the sinking sun.
These thoughts did me no good,
And made me want to run.

But run as I might,
There was nowhere I could go.
I know I have to wait,
And wait and wait for you.

Long time I have waited,
To see if I will get a second chance.
Years and years holding my heart down, weighted,
I have existed in a trance.

Memories, memories are all I have,
For I have come too far away.
Your voice, your touch, for you I crave,
What more could I say?

All this time I stood by the sun dying,
I want to tell you so much.
Tears I can’t shed, no crying,
You, I can’t really touch.

For I am nothing but a whisper mere,
Of wind and air.
A ghost who has been here,
Wishing for a reprieve from afar.

I look out at the bay,
Night after night.
Day after day,
And each twilight…

Sunset, glorious sun,
Slowly dipping down his head,
Taking with him all what I’d done,
And all what I have said.

Leaving behind,
Darkness - a blanket.
A hope exists that I shall find,
Forgiveness - just yet.