I wake up...

I wake up,
And ask myself this…
What am I?
Answers crowd in…
But are they the answers?
They answer what is now…
Are they good for the future?
Will they change so much that my question changes?

Sometimes I wake up,
And ask myself this…
What am I doing?
Life feels like a movie sometimes…
I feel I am watching my life go by…
Frame after frame, reel after reel,
Saying dialogues, doing things planned right.

Every now and then I wake up,
I ask myself this…
Where should I be?
My mind reels out a million places.
Places I have been or I will go to…
Those that I have heard about.
But is that where I want to go?
Is that where I will be happy?
Will all that change so much my question changes?

Every time I wake up,
I ask myself this…
Where am I now?
Is this where I want to be?
Would I rather be any place else?
This place – am I really happy?
Or do I need to find some help?

Questions, questions with no answers,
Answers that might change my questions…
Feelings that may change my answers…
Answers that ask more questions…..
Where do I go with all this?
Or do I just stay where I am?
Is there anything that is amiss?
Or is it just the way I am?

So every time…I wake up…
I ask myself all this.
Every time…
One day I shall find them answers…
I should for the future beckons!