What am I doing?

What am I doing?
And with people such?
Just explaining?
To those who don’t understand me much.
Trying to make you see,
I am telling you,
Telling you to let me be.
Telling you what I do…
Telling you what I will,
And what I wont?
What I think and
What I don’t????
Or what is right and
What is wrong?
With nothing…no reason in sight,
For years now…so long.
I feel, no I know,
I am just wasting time.
How will all this help me grow?
Even if don’t say nothing all will be fine.
You are welcome to think,
What ever you want about me.
When the truth will actually sink,
Maybe then you will believe me.
You say I am negative…
Well, what in the world are you?
You won’t be and you wont let me live,
You won’t be happy and will only make me blue.
You say you are critical,
And that I am a fool.
If you are so practical,
Then why can’t you take the same from me…or be cool?
What ever I do,
Is a mistake?
What ever you say is true,
All true and nothing fake.
Well, you can have your opinion and comment,
And be happy with it all.
I am sure good things you meant,
Just that I don’t have to accept any of it at all.
I am happy the way I am now,
Being a fool and knowing my place.
I don’t really see how?
I could bring further disgrace…
My life is mine,
And I shall live it my way.
If you don’t like it, that’s fine…
You don’t really have any say.